the one who survives by making the lives
of others worthwhile
she's coming apart
right before my eyes
the one who depends on the services she renders
to those who come knocking
she's seeing too clearly what she can't be
what understanding defies

 

she says I need not to need
or else a love with intuition
someone who reaches out to my weakness and won't let go
I need not to need
I've always been the tower
but now I feel like I'm the flower trying to bloom in snow

 

she turns out the light anticipating night falling
tenderly around her
and watches the dusk
the words won't come
she carries the act so convincingly the fact is
sometimes she believes it
that she can be happy the way things are
be happy with the things she's done

 
reach out
but hold back
where is safety
reach out
and hold back
where is the one who can change me
where is the one
the one
the one

......

整整花了一宿的时间，从头看了遍这里所有的日志，从头看了一个好友博客里所有的日志。

百感交集，兴奋，惊讶，忧虑，嫉妒，无奈。。。

当你使自己陷入了一个自己无法摆脱的境地的时候，那也就是最麻烦的时候。

这几年发生的这些个事，和这些事相关的人，在一晚上又都浮现了出来，使我觉得其实大学的四年过的是很漫长的。

毁在别人手上的和毁在自己手上的人，我想应该是社会上的多数人，因为成功的人毕竟是少数。

现在我只希望我起码别毁在自己的手上，那样实在是很矬的一件事。。。